far but not gone

well versed in sorrow
screaming silent promise
leaking into tomorrow
so far from yesterday
so far from us

drips of ichor drop
fathom the fall
divine intentions stop
suspended in thought
a beautiful stall

partial endeavors dead
weary and a waste
animate yourself instead
cease fire
no need for haste

shoved so far into existence
scarce smiles dealt
so near but never past the fence
so deep in sleep
skin never felt

hardly an honest glance
peer past what i am
such a convoluted dance
of needless steps
grab hold of my hand

where death ends.

on the eve of your denial
i sat on the cold couch waiting
for your words
your eyes
to spill,
washing, away my zealousness
to speak of our prospects
your windows never shed a tear though
not for me
does the reflection of yourself scare you away?
our analagous colors bled
leaving us with an open sprawl of gray
not quite yet our green expansion
a hint of technicolor would do us well
so wont you please wake up
and join me outside
where life begins
and death ends.

not finished

laying on the coil filled mattress
my heart becomes heavier
with every rhythmic beat
shaking below me
every pulse throwing me into the air
saying a deathly hello to the ceiling
each time
perhaps a crack of consciousness
would do me some good
i've been asleep for days
and the hazy hindsight
keeps me confined

hello. goodbye.

hello.
goodbye.
this time i sit and wonder
how things might have been

if you had stayed and i had left
ambient music playing my exit song
a slow, soft wave goodbye
and you fall

a recession
into a beautiful space,
of time at a standstill
and azure dissonance

and still i fall
making my cameo
because i cannot stay away
mind craving the torment

heart hungers for comfort
yet i don’t allow such things
your silence is loud
in my head

but you
you lay across me
the weight of your heart
bringing such ease

the words, those words
leave your lips
i breathe them in,
consuming your thoughts

i extend my hand
my soul comfortably sitting in it
waiting for you
to reach back