Thursday, December 22, 2005

work in progress...yet to be titled and yet to be finished

the sun leaked all over the sky, crimson and tormented. i watched it sink into the ocean’s depths. there would never be light again from that moment on. i blew the glow a goodbye kiss and closed my eyes and fell back onto the open field i sat on. it was covered with a thin layer of mist from twilight’s tears. the grass tickled my ears and poked my sides. alone, i had never been so content , this was the moment i had been waiting for the entire day, my entire life. my life, it has been one day, with many enchanting naps. how much one grows in such little time. it seems like just yesterday i was a child with so little worry, so little fear, but no, that was just earlier today.

i ran away, finally got away from all that haunted me. the past that tore me down, the present that couldn’t forget the past, and the future that couldn’t exist with the present’s stubborn ways. what a sickening succession it was, is. the leaves are falling, the trees will be reborn after seemily dying, they’ve got the idea. i forced myself to stop thinking. just for one second, couldn’t i stop?

i opened my eyes, the sun was still gone. in it’s place appeared the sparkling water droplets left behind from the splash of the firey orb's impact in the sea. against the ebony expansion, they were so bright. i wished they would fall down on me. the crickets cued up their ensemble, and i smiled with anticipation. with the first note of their symphony, the saline rolled down my cheeks. i finally ceased my neverending analysis, and enjoyed the moment for exactly what it was.

in this instant i was the only one left. was i the only one left? so caught up in my enlightenment, i had forgotten to check. i rolled to my side and stood on my feet. i was taller than i remembered. the crickets didn’t stop like they usually do with the first sign of movement. they strummed me an exit song as i walked away. i didn’t want to leave, but i knew i would get lost there if i didn’t get up at that very second. i strolled aimlessly through the tall, cold grass, barely able to discern what laid ahead. the more i couldn’t see, the more appeared.

i was further away from my insect orchestra now, and the silence grew loud. the soft grass below my feet suddenly became a rough terrain of dusty earth and jagged rocks. my pace quickened, footsteps full of trepidation. without warning, my solitary ease had been replaced with a feeling of scrutiny from an onlooker; i turned to see if my intuition held true. just as my eyes were adjusting to the darkness, some unseen obstacle sent me plummeting to the ground. the night became darker.

the ocean blew its salty breath on me and woke me out of a dreamless sleep. my lashes fluttered as i let the sunlight into my lethargic eyelids. i sat up, i fell further then i remembered. i quickly examined my scraped and bruised body, looking away from the wounds to survey my surroundings. it looked drastically different than the scene i had tried to imagine in the darkness of lastnight. a rustle in a nearby bush quickly shifted my attention. i saw the bronzed, dirt covered figure struggling to move. i was hesitant to assist the creature, for it's identity was uncertain and so were my surroundings. i regained my thoughts and advanced towards the dry, green shrub.

i reached out and touched the dusty flesh. a frightened and confused...woman, beautiful woman turned towards me and i immediately backed off. "it's okay," i said, unsure if she would even speak my language, she looked so meak, so worn out. "where are we?" she softly said, such a soothing voice, i felt a sense of calmness come over me the moment her words hit the air. "i was hoping you knew," i said in my most relaxed speech possible; i wanted to return the comfort. she shook her head and looked at me, and suddenly time was sedated, her long sepia strands swept up against her cheeks with each turn to the side.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

your eyes drip like pools

keeping myself safe under my flimsy, black umbrella
the sounds of dissonance echo in my ears
i look down at my feet
moving slow motion to that beautiful music
rain drops parachute down to join their fallen friends
my shoes slowly fall into the tiny formed lakes
golden hairs swirl around my face and engulf me
the cold, wet breeze swirls up and surrounds my entire being
and my mind
my mind is floating
swimming through a sea of thick air and thoughts
entranced in a melancholy storm
flashes of you go off
your eyes
and how they impaled my soul
forever scarred by your beauty
i peek out from under my canopy
everything is fast paced and ugly
i retracted
and here i sit
holding that flimsy, black umbrella
and never letting go